My inspiration had disappeared in the haze..
Lost my creativity.. but I was left unfazed
With so much time left to live and learn..
I believed they would once again return...
So much to write.. and with just so much to share...
I stared at the paper.. but there was nothing there...
Didn't need to see it written when I felt it inside...
You just can't force it out.. but I sure as hell tried...
I had gone to another dark place within my mind..
Fooling myself and everyone else that I was fine...
Rather than panic.. I had gone manic.. losing control...
Feeling myself rot inside as denial had taken its toll...
As the internal pain and agony slowly began to subside..
It had unlocked all the emotions I had bottled up inside...
I realized that I had nearly lost my life yet again..
And learned that this isn't how it's going to end...
They must have seen something in me.. I'm not sure what they had found..
But I imagine it must have been good.. after all they had stayed around...
Here I am feeling worthless now.. just like this dirt here on the ground..
Because deep down I know.. that I was the one who has let them down...
If I could right each and every wrong.. you must know that I would..
And to go back in the past.. oh how I wish and dream that I could...
There is something else that I realize that I must do.. I really know I should..
And that is.. not to just say goodbye for now.. but to say just stay
If you could...
--
hamza ..
