Another day ..

And yet another day went by .. A day full of stupid ideas and
irrelevant thinking ..

I'm losing out on my thoughts .. The focus tends to have sagged and my
mind is all but exhausted of the new and happening ideas ..
I'm too courteous to cast away my usual self and this newly acquired
attire isn't why I chose to be as free as I used to be ..

Recognition is not the chief concern but even the basic ideologies are
being questioned and new and better ideas are being smashed..

I don't like being bound to things .. There are things I like to do
and I love doing them on purpose .. Being free from worries and smile
a little more everyday .. But this is not happening ...

The tragedy of life is that nothing comes easy and everything has a
cost attached to it ... Even a smile would cost you a million tears
... Even a single little smile ..

Those who we love to be with, will make us smile .. But not free ...
And those who make us cry will do it at their cost ...

Being jolly and courteous just isn't enough ... Just isn't ..
And maybe too much of recognition is not either ...

But then I'll never stop taking opportunities to thank this one pious
soul .. For the one who made me so much strong to face the world, is
now the only weakness left in me (forever) ..

--
hamza ..

The Question ...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the stars

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

It's okay not to be okay

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

Tears don't mean you're losing..

Everybody's bruising..

There's nothing wrong with who you are...

--

hamza ..

Off the Shore ...

Belonging to a community of not so saintly people was never an
expectation.. Not when I arrived in this land of palm trees.. They
call it Gods own country, but I find no God who fills me with a sense
of satisfaction..
I probably left Him back home ..

Thinking about this, and going through some old scripts, I realize
what actually being a devotee is.. You leave no stone unturned..
There's no religious place that you don't bow before .. Humanism ..
That's what I'll call it ..

Here, you'll find no such exquisite ideology.. Technopark is a
material world.. With no scope of that spiritualism, that fevor of
being a die hard devout ... You're a machine .. And you have to work..
No matter what happens ..

A weekend that is washed away with the tides on the beach, is all we
have to boast about .. Rest, is just being material in every aspect ..

And then, its not just me.. Its everyone's story.. Its a song that
everyone is singing .. Its that one blood rush that makes you skip a
beat ..

And you ask yourself .. Are you the usual you, or just a shadow of
your remnants, which is bound to get washed with the new tide that
arrives ...

You're not the usual you, I'm not the usual me.. We're just not us anymore ..

Humanism, a lost keyword ...

--
hamza ..

A little piece of peace ...

Someone once told me .. If you're upset, just take your one hand and
hold it with the other, pretending the other hand is of someone who
you think cares about you all the time ...

At that moment probably I thought it wasn't a good idea and I didn't
let him complete what he was trying to say ... But today, as I did it,
I can tell you .. Hamza, it is incredible ... You feel you're in the
utmost solace and comfort ... Its an incredibly sweet feeling ...

An act that I understood nearly 3 years after it was being told to me,
I feel I'm way too behind by virtue of being kind than this pious
someone ...

Pious people do exist ... And I have seen one ... And it took me ages
to understand what being mean is ... :)

PS : pure thoughts ... Right from the heart ..

--
hamza ..

Burning the Midnight Oil ...

Communication skills are supposed to be a gift from her .. The one who
made me who I am today...
With every little quote, she changed my life and placed my thoughts in
new dimensions ... Dimensions that I could hardly think were possible
within me ..

And a few days back, I received an RL2 for the same .. Maybe I didn't
deliver to the mark, but yes they say I'm better ...

Technicality is a venture of which you will never reach the bottom ..
It is all a bottomless sea of ideas and innovation ... And to keep up
with it is what would keep you going ...

And the best thing about these days is the people I am surrounded by
... Everything is somehow getting better and better .. And probably
the best days ...

I was literally in need of this change .. And the rest ... Was nothing
..but burning the midnight oil ...

Life .. :)

--
hamza ..