As Always

For all the words unsaid ... The infliction goes beyond the limit that
this mind can tolerate ...

The irony is that for every little smile that we want on their face,
they have a hundred reasons to make us feel sad ...

And then they won't tell us why ..

-Infringed Smile

Good Times ...

Sometimes we do miss people who mean the world to us ...

Friends .. Family .. Life ..

And then we're helpless to reach out to them...

an all we do is pray for their smile .. For their well being ...

-Nostalgic


--
hamza ..

For An Answer ..

A girl .. Barely 9 years old .. At airoli station
Like all kids she could've been playing for a bright sunny day ... Its
saturday.. A weekend ... And when I thought I had no life left in me..
there's something about her that shook me ... Took me through a
different pain.. A different level of uneasiness ..

While I watched her from within the train .. On a bench she sat,
munching on something happily .. Steady and silent .. I smiled .. She
saw me, and she smiled back .. She was cute .. A blonde haired little
girl with a sweet expression ...

And as I decided to look away, the very next moment, I saw something
that moved me ...

The femur ... It wasn't there .. It wasn't ... She was without a foot ..
Could've been a rail accident ...probably .. Or a road mishap .. Or ..
What assumption could I make ... I was thunderstruck ..

A pretty little girl like her.. And an ugly long lifetime to live ...
And amongst this .. She still had a smile for everyone ..

There's so much of pain in this world .. And we aren't aware of it ...
Little and unworrying as she was ...
She was smiling at whatever she was munching on .. Waving her other
leg carelessly .. And occasionally looking at the people passing by
with the cutest smile I can ever think of...

10 seconds.. Probably 10 seconds, and I found out a bitter truth of
life .. That ugly face of the coin, that I pray shouldn't be shown to
anyone ...

Our pain is just a few words .. Her pain is a part of her ... Our pain
is the few missing gestures .. Her pain is the wheel chair ...

A night full of work.. Their thought and a worry .. And this blighted sight .. None
would let me sleep ... None ..

Sigh ..


--
hamza ..

Of A Nightmare ..

They know I do care.. And yet they do things that rip me through,
sending shivers down ...

I know they fear lightening ..
And now a travel alone ... to the city I fear the most ..

For all the tears that dried away, as if were not enough ..
I still have to drop a few .. But this time at my own helplessness ...

I wonder if this night's got any sleep for me now ... None .. I know..
and then .. who'll tell them what they mean to us and what it feels like ..

--
hamza ..

Something to Smile about ...

An empty train ..
A window seat ..
A slight drizzle over the greens ...
An occasiional shake like belly dancing..


Music ... And Memories ..

Freakin awesome combination .. :)

Sigh ..

Felt .. The air had that fragrance ... Or was it that one life breath ...

I know not ..


--
hamza ..

A Strong Belief ..

If our lives depend on things like space
and time, then when we finally overcome space
and time.. we've destroyed our own togetherness...
But overcome space, and all we have left is Here..
Overcome time, and all we have left is Now...
And in the middle of Here and Now, it is always possible that we might
come across each other once in a while..

That's why these stories don't have endings.. They
don't have endings because care doesn't end... It grows with time ..
It grows with space ...

And its hard pretending that we don't care... Extremely hard ..

If ever they knew ... I wish ...


--
hamza ..